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  • Gender[queer],  Queer[ness],  YouTube[r]

    ? QAC 77 – Legal Name Change || Non-Binary Gender Markers || “”Deadnames”“ || NEVADA

    July 13, 2019 / No Comments

    having socially ‘transitioned’ my name years ago, it feels amazing to finally have my name reflected correctly on legal documents, identification, etc. not only that, “X” as a gender marker has recently become a possibility for me…!except, you know. not really. because everything always has to be complicated for me. always. and America is fucking ridiculous.in this video, i talk about my personal experience with socially changing my name, the process & timeline of legally changing my name in Nevada / Washingon state, and go on a tangentially relevant rant about why i personally detest the term “deadname”.for those interested in looking into legally changing your name and/or gender marker, check out these amazing resources:https://transgenderlawcenter.org/https://transequality.org/documents legal ‘transition’ as a non-binary person in America is a joke, but i managed to not be overly bitter about it in the video somehow. just know that there was and is much internal screaming regardless.…

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    Vesper H.

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    May 7, 2014

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    July 14, 2014

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    May 10, 2015
  • Japan[ese],  Queer[ness],  YouTube[r]

    QAC 75.5 – Life Update: Leaving Japan?! | Legal Name Change | Goodbye Locs

    March 5, 2019 / 1 Comment

    over 11 years after first leaving America for Japan, the time has come for me to finally try my hand at life back in the States…

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    October 7, 2016

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    December 18, 2016
  • Gender[queer],  Queer[ness],  YouTube[r]

    QAC 70 – 5 Months On T: Stopping HRT? | Voice Change | Non-Binary || The T Files #008

    June 26, 2018 / No Comments

    from YouTube: (more than) two months has passed since my last T update and a lot has happened…? increased acne, continued voice dropping; increasing body hair, fat redistribution; adjusting to having a libido, enjoying no longer being anemic; a failed health check, stopping T– wait, what?

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    April 25, 2016

    Re: QAC 51 – #ProudToBe Black Non-Binary Bi Pan AND Asexual

    June 23, 2016

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    May 14, 2016
  • Gender[queer],  Queer[ness],  YouTube[r]

    QAC 68 – 3 Months on T: Libido Changes || Non-Binary | Asexual || The T Files #007

    April 15, 2018 / No Comments

    a little over three months later, the changes that i’m experiencing on 100mg / 2 weeks of injectible testosterone are seemingly more subtle than they were starting out… or perhaps that’s just me being less hyperaware of every single little thing now compared to in the beginning when every single little thing was Amaze and OMG. there’s only so long a person can maintain such hyperawareness of their own body before the hyperawareness itself becomes exhausting, you know? either way, noticeable changes are still happening and in this episode of The T Files i talk about weight gain, changing personal hygiene, higher body temperature, changes in libido and related Asexy Feels along with The Much TMI, So WTF topic of genitalia shiz. and now, stay tuned for an advertisement from our sponsors– Starbucks! bringing Quality Video Descriptions born out of sleep deprivation, fueled by the remnants of our grande Caramel…

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    May 15, 2017

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    July 27, 2017

    QAC 23 – Being Forced Out of the Closet (Bi/Panromantic Non-binary Asexual)

    February 24, 2014
  • Gender[queer],  Queer[ness],  YouTube[r]

    QAC 67 – 2 Months on HRT || Testosterone | Anemia | Non-Binary || The T Files #006

    March 19, 2018 / No Comments

    looking back over the past month, it feels like quite a bit has happened: minor voice changes, chest “deflation”, libido reincarnation and the beginnings of facial hair growth?! to name just a few. however, none of those things hold a candle to the unexpected health benefits that i’ve experienced since starting T as someone who is anemic. maybe staying on T long-term wouldn’t be such a bad idea after all…..? cue melodramatic music, but not really.

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    July 9, 2018

    ? QAC 77 – Legal Name Change || Non-Binary Gender Markers || “”Deadnames”“ || NEVADA

    July 13, 2019

    …mmm, so.

    March 24, 2017
  • Gender[queer],  YouTube[r]

    QAC 65.5 – Understanding T Injection Dosages || HRT | Non-Binary | Trans

    February 18, 2018 / No Comments

    for those not familiar with reading syringes or dosages in general, figuring out how to read or calculate dosages of testosterone injections can be confusing. while i’m certainly no expert at it myself (and as such, please do correct me if i’ve gotten something wrong), i have yet to see any other video specific to this topic in regards to testosterone for non-binary, trans and gender non-conforming people, so i figured i’d try my hand at it. the usual “I AM NOT A DOCTOR” disclaimer applies. …iono, maybe someone out there will find this video helpful. meanwhile, i’m tired of flooding my own channel with nothing but HRT-related videos. time to talk about other things. soonish. zzz…

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    June 21, 2014

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    May 11, 2017
  • Gender[queer],  YouTube[r]

    QAC 65 – 1 Month on Low Dose HRT | Non-Binary | Mental Health || The T Files #005

    February 12, 2018 / No Comments

    voice cracking? increased stamina? mood swings?? it’s been one month since i started a relatively low dosage of testosterone and even though in actuality not much has happened yet, i’m still surprised by what has. it’s been an interesting month, but as it turns out starting low-dose T isn’t as simple as simply choosing a random low dosage and going with the recommended injection frequency. or at least, not when you’re trying to manage depression and anxiety on top of it all and you’re not sure  fluctuating hormone levels are a risk that you want to take. one month later, while still happy with my decision to start T, it’s time to take a moment to pause. recap. and reevaluate. …my video descriptions sound like the back of a poorly written novel abandoned on the shelf with the tabloids in the checkout aisle because someone decided last minute that it…

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    July 27, 2017

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    July 14, 2016
  • [Random] Thoughts,  Mental [Un]health,  Queer[ness]

    Shit-I-Think-Is-Happening-#BecauseTestosterone Log

    February 10, 2018 / No Comments

    blaqueer: blaqueer: blaqueer: blaqueer: content warning: TMI regarding bodily functions & genitals week 1 (62.5mg  /2 weeks, injection) exacerbated drowsiness like what oncoming-cold-like throat shenanigans voice in my head sounding like it does when i first wake up, except all day long random, awkward voice cracking when trying to talk over obnoxious teenagers random, inexplicable genital feels random, pre-menstruation-like feels from that arrogant thing called a uterus stairs suddenly became a little less formidable after the injection, but not for all that long. my bladder suddenly isn’t what it used to be– why??? week 2 bladder weirdness is still a thing throat shenanigans are no longer a thing voice cracking still is a thing marginally lower-than-normal speaking voice more easily maintainable; however, without conscious effort, speaking voice remains unchanged downstairs growth hardly noticeable but there began wondering early on into week 2 if all of the T had already been…

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    January 7, 2017

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    August 11, 2015

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    January 30, 2020
  • Gender[queer],  YouTube[r]

    QAC 64 – 48 Hours On T || Starting HRT In Japan || Non-Binary || The T Files #004

    January 15, 2018 / No Comments

    it’s only been 48 hours, but i’m finally on T! 62.5 mg/ml of Enarmon Depot (エナルモンデポー) every two weeks, to be specific. The T Files is a series of videos documenting my journey to get testosterone in Japan and wherever i may end up with it from there. while this series may be helpful for those who are interested in the process of getting HRT (more specifically, testosterone) in Japan, it’s also just my personal playlist of [shit]videos about my adventures with T for my own future reference. watch at your own digression. :p more like 72+ hours on T now, but who’s counting. only YouTube, who immediately flagged this video as inappropriate for some advertisers, presumably just because it had “testosterone” and “HRT” in it. sigh.

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    November 28, 2017

    Re: QAC 51 – #ProudToBe Black Non-Binary Bi Pan AND Asexual

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  • Gender[queer],  Queer[ness],  YouTube[r]

    QAC 62 – The Road To HRT: Fears, Goals & Compromise || Non-Binary || The T Files #002

    December 11, 2017 / No Comments

    when i first started this channel not long after having just began to explore and embrace my gender, i didn’t consider HRT / testosterone to even be a card on the table for me to play. HRT was something that others did and that i was judged for not wanting to do; it was for people who experienced “real”, bodily dysphoria, not people like me whose dysphoria was largely derivative of society and whose complicated relationship with the very idea of medically “transitioning” was used as a means of invalidation by others. i can’t help but imagine 2013 Vesper looking at 2017 Vesper with silent, candid irony as they brush aside the years of others’ bullshit to finally confront their own.

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VESPER H.

YouTuber & Blogger

Queer As Cat is the blog and YouTube channel of Vesper, an American expat currently living in Japan.
reoccurring topics include: #asexuality, #nonbinary, #queerness #blackness & #mentalhealth

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