QAC 72 – Outted To Religious Mom: 4 Years Later | HRT | Non-Binary Relationship || #ItGetsBetter?
in 2014, YouTube outted me to my mom and she’s struggled to understand, let alone accept my sexuality and gender ever since. four years later, things are still touch-and-go when mom finds out that i’m on testosterone and in what she perceives to be a “lesbian relationship”… does her head implode yet again? #ItGetsBetter, they said. well, at this point i have zero fucks to give either way, buuttt i made this #LifeUpdate / #StoryTime video for you anyway. consider this me being ‘officially’ back from being MIA / AFK, i suppose.
5 years and counting…
it just occurred to me (while porting over more old posts) that Queer As Cat, the YouTube channel, has been a thing for 5 years now as of May 11th. hmm……
impostor.
…it’s always disconcerting to be reminded of how people seem to have an impression of me as a person / my personality that doesn’t at all reflect who i am in reality.
QAC 64 – 48 Hours On T || Starting HRT In Japan || Non-Binary || The T Files #004
it’s only been 48 hours, but i’m finally on T! 62.5 mg/ml of Enarmon Depot (エナルモンデポー) every two weeks, to be specific. The T Files is a series of videos documenting my journey to get testosterone in Japan and wherever i may end up with it from there. while this series may be helpful for those who are interested in the process of getting HRT (more specifically, testosterone) in Japan, it’s also just my personal playlist of [shit]videos about my adventures with T for my own future reference. watch at your own digression. :p more like 72+ hours on T now, but who’s counting. only YouTube, who immediately flagged this video as inappropriate for some advertisers, presumably just because it had “testosterone” and “HRT” in it. sigh.
Feedback: “Just wanted to drop by and say that I love your youtube channel!”
anonymous said: Just wanted to drop by and say that I love your youtube channel! I really like the way that you narrate topics, and put them into a very plain, digestible, and easy to understand manner. When coming out to friends I have actually linked them to some of your videos for better definition and clarity. Please keep up the good work. Wishing you all the best in 2018 💖 thanks for dropping by and leaving such a kind message. i really am flattered that you’ve found my channel helpful enough to have shared my videos with others. happy new year and best wishes to you too. 🙂
Q&A: “what do you use for recording and editing your videos?”
anonymous said: If you don’t mind my asking, what do you use for recording and editing your videos? I’ve thought about doing youtube before but have little idea of what kinds of equipment to invest in. i don’t mind at all, anon. actually, i wouldn’t recommend investing too much, if anything at all, into YouTube starting out. a lot of people have really strong intentions starting out and rush out to buy a nice camera, but end up not continuing with their channel for whatever unforseen reason. also, until you’ve actually given YouTube a try, it’s hard to know what exactly works best for you in terms of equipment, setup, etc. having said all that, to finally answer your question, i use some relatively high-end equipment that isn’t at all what i started out with, nor what i’d recommend to someone just starting out. i have a Canon 5D Mark…
whiteness as default
as usual, i find myself turning to YouTube as a resource for information only to be reminded that…. YouTube is So Damn White. most things non-binary and / or trans are So Damn White. a search for “non-binary” and “testosterone” turns up almost nothing but skinny, short haired, white, non-binary people, none of whom i can really see myself in. which is nothing new. that’s part of the reason i’m on YouTube in the first place. beyond that, a bigger problem that i find myself faced with is that the very image / concept of “androgyny” or stereotypical “non-binary appearance” is inherently linked to whiteness. i want people to pause before they misgender me (seeing as how they will inevitably misgender me regardless) and the best way to bring about that is, presumably, androgynous appearance. however, androgyny feels unobtainable to me as a black person, because no matter what i…
Feedback: “As a closeted nonbinary person, your videos always hit close to home for me.”
anonymous said: As a closeted nonbinary person, your videos always hit close to home for me. It seems whenever I’m confused, questioning, or concerned about something, I’ll check your channel and you’ve recently released a video on the topic. Your vlogs really just strike a chord with me, and I wanted to thank you for making them. thank you so much, anon, for taking the time out of your day to send me this incredibly kind message. i’ll never cease to be amazed at how relatable people find my random musings, rants and monologues and i’ll never cease being motivated to continue recording them thanks to people like you who are kind enough to remind me that they matter to more than just me. <3 thanks again, anon. i really appreciate your kindness.
Feedback: “Thank you for being visible and thank you for all your thoughts you share with others…”
V.I. said: Thank you for being visible and thank you for all your thoughts you share with others. I watched every single of your videos and I am so grateful for everything you do and say. I can relate to so many things you talk about and everything you say makes so much sense. Thank you for being there and for helping so many people. I am sure that there are a lot of us who remain silent just because we are scared to be out, but I would like you to know that we are here and support you. Best, V. I. …..i’m speechless, V. I.. thank you. thank you so much for not only watching one or three of my videos– but for watching all of them?! thank you for coming here to share your thoughts with me, as well as for your touching words of support. thank…
Q&A: “What mic do you use to record your videos?”
anonymous said: Hi Vesper! What mic do you use to record your videos? hi anon. 🙂 i’ve been using a RØDE VideoMic Pro for the past 10 months because for awhile i lived in a very noisy apartment and the street noise in all of my videos finally got to me. no matter what i did, the camera’s built-in mic was just too good at picking up ambient noise from outside my apartment. that said, for 3 years prior to that i used the camera’s built-in mic and the built-in mic was fine until i moved to the paper-thin-walled apartment. generally speaking, external mics tend to be unnecessary, especially when just starting out on YouTube, because built-in mics tend to be decent these days. that said, if you do find yourself needing an external mic, there’s no reason to fork out the kind of cash that i did for mine. there are…
