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  • [Random] Thoughts,  Black[ness],  Queer[ness]

    my #WakandaForever✊🏿 is not your #WakandaForever✊

    April 21, 2018 / No Comments

    so i finally got to see Black Panther again ( #WAKANDAFOREVER AHHHHHH–) and am now at a Starbucks basking in the afterglow of the movie, about to attempt to herd my thoughts into a more coherent cacophony of words than exists in my head at present. wish me luck.

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    this quote though

    November 7, 2015

    #asexual pride shirt

    October 27, 2013

    Re: …i just did something bad.

    September 10, 2017
  • [A]sexuality,  [Random] Thoughts,  YouTube[r]

    QAC 66 – Split Attraction Model: Opting Out Of Romantic Orientations || Grayromantic | Asexual

    March 12, 2018 / 1 Comment

    i’ve said this before on Tumblr, but it’s time to make it “official” on YouTube: i don’t identify as biromantic or panromantic anymore. in fact, i don’t identify as “-romantic” anything anymore. after years of quietly questioning my experience of so-called “romantic” attraction, all the while trying to navigate spaces which obviously didn’t have someone like me– someone who neither felt comfortable being assumed “[allo]romantic” nor “aromantic”– in mind, i finally opted to discard romantic orientations (for myself) all together. rather, i identify as a bi ace. as a pan ace. although if i’m being honest, more often than not as a queer ace or more simply as “queer”. but what exactly is the difference between “biromantic ace” and “bi ace”? after over a year of having identified as the latter, it seems to me that thanks to amatonormativity and the general normalization of romantic orientations in ace communities, people don’t see…

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    comments on my “QAC 36 – What Acephobia & Asexual Erasure Looks Like” video.

    November 26, 2015

    「私はゲイ」自分の言葉で、自分を語る / “I’m Gay” – Talking About Myself By Myself: Gay men talk about their own identity.

    May 6, 2016

    Tokyo Rainbow Pride 2015 (4/26/15)

    May 10, 2015
  • [Random] Thoughts,  Mental [Un]health,  Queer[ness]

    Shit-I-Think-Is-Happening-#BecauseTestosterone Log

    February 10, 2018 / No Comments

    blaqueer: blaqueer: blaqueer: blaqueer: content warning: TMI regarding bodily functions & genitals week 1 (62.5mg  /2 weeks, injection) exacerbated drowsiness like what oncoming-cold-like throat shenanigans voice in my head sounding like it does when i first wake up, except all day long random, awkward voice cracking when trying to talk over obnoxious teenagers random, inexplicable genital feels random, pre-menstruation-like feels from that arrogant thing called a uterus stairs suddenly became a little less formidable after the injection, but not for all that long. my bladder suddenly isn’t what it used to be– why??? week 2 bladder weirdness is still a thing throat shenanigans are no longer a thing voice cracking still is a thing marginally lower-than-normal speaking voice more easily maintainable; however, without conscious effort, speaking voice remains unchanged downstairs growth hardly noticeable but there began wondering early on into week 2 if all of the T had already been…

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    tfw TERFs.

    March 1, 2017

    *scribble scribble*

    September 15, 2016

    This Is Fine.

    July 14, 2018
  • [Random] Thoughts,  Mental [Un]health

    anxiety: haha– fuck you.

    February 8, 2018 / No Comments

    me: could you maybe NOT make me think about that thing anymore maybe MAYBE? anxiety: did you know that that thing that you THINK you don’t want to think about but are thinking about anyway is a legit thing that you OUGHT to be thinking about– because WHAT IF?? i mean, just think about it! that thing? IT’S A THING. THAT YOU ARE STILL THINKING ABOUT. that thing. fuck.

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    Ash Hardell’s “The ABC’s of LGBT+” in Japanese!

    November 25, 2017

    #asexual pride shirt

    October 27, 2013

    totally random Yukihari / hazardaĵo pri Yukihari

    June 26, 2014
  • [Random] Thoughts,  Mental [Un]health

    just the one.

    February 3, 2018 / No Comments

    as someone who can count on one hand the number of people they’ve ever had intense feelings for over the course of 32 years of this thing called “Life” and still have fingers to spare, can i just say that this whole intense feelings thing is an adjustment? with a learning curve, apparently, because what little past experience i have feels like nothing in comparison, and yet has still managed to do nothing but hinder me in the present. might as well only count the one finger. yes. that finger. because fuck you, ghosts of relationships past that still haunt me to this day.

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    QAC 30 – Gender Expression / Presentation Blurb

    October 28, 2014

    tfw TERFs.

    March 1, 2017

    *scribble scribble*

    September 15, 2016
  • [A]sexuality,  [Random] Thoughts,  Queer[ness]

    that feel when no words

    January 22, 2018 / No Comments

    that feel when you finally have a use for relationship terminology, but none of it makes sense to you because all of it is predicated on the assumption that you subscribe to the dichotomy of “romantic” vs “[queer]platonic”– not to even mention the equally taxing concept that is “alterous”.

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    allo by default: hypocrisy in “aspec” spaces

    February 25, 2017

    City of Philadelphia unveils Pride flag with brown and black stripes

    August 4, 2017

    QAC 04 – Why I Identify as Panromantic & Biromantic

    May 24, 2013
  • [Random] Thoughts,  Mental [Un]health,  YouTube[r]

    impostor.

    January 20, 2018 / No Comments

    …it’s always disconcerting to be reminded of how people seem to have an impression of me as a person / my personality that doesn’t at all reflect who i am in reality.

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    one of many reasons why “QUEER” means so much to me.

    September 23, 2016

    #2016BestNine: Last Minute Selfie Positivity

    December 30, 2016

    adventures in Japanese TV: “haafu”

    September 1, 2016
  • [Random] Thoughts,  Gender[queer],  Japan[ese],  Queer[ness]

    01.12.2018: T Day à la Snapchat.

    January 12, 2018 / No Comments

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    Re: “”Visibility””

    September 18, 2017

    “”two genders””

    December 30, 2016

    …so. selfies.

    February 15, 2015
  • [A]sexuality,  [Random] Thoughts,  Black[ness],  Japan[ese],  Queer[ness]

    Antiblackness and Binarism: Grindr in Japan

    January 6, 2018 / No Comments

    posted with the permission of a friend, the above gem is but one of many examples of antiblack racism, transphobia and binarism that my friend is subjected to regularly on Grindr in Osaka and Tokyo. sharing it here as i often hear of this kind of thing happening on Grindr in English speaking countries, but see little about it beyond that. antiblackness is not unique to America or other English speaking countries, it is universal. and least there be any false assumptions made based on the above example being in English, my friend receives similar messages from non-English speakers in Japanese and has also received such messages during their time living in South Korea. this is Old News that is apparently Breaking News to some, but rest assured it most certainly is not Fake News.

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    landscapes and fissures: navigating ace terminology in Japanese & English

    June 1, 2018

    more Sailor Moon Crystal fanpersoning #SCREAMING

    May 17, 2016

    “i am asexual”

    February 12, 2013
  • [Random] Thoughts,  Black[ness],  Gender[queer],  Queer[ness]

    whiteness as default

    December 10, 2017 / No Comments

    as usual, i find myself turning to YouTube as a resource for information only to be reminded that…. YouTube is So Damn White. most things non-binary and / or trans are So Damn White. a search for “non-binary” and “testosterone” turns up almost nothing but skinny, short haired, white, non-binary people, none of whom i can really see myself in. which is nothing new. that’s part of the reason i’m on YouTube in the first place. beyond that, a bigger problem that i find myself faced with is that the very image / concept of “androgyny” or stereotypical “non-binary appearance” is inherently linked to whiteness. i want people to pause before they misgender me (seeing as how they will inevitably misgender me regardless) and the best way to bring about that is, presumably, androgynous appearance. however, androgyny feels unobtainable to me as a black person, because no matter what i…

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    re: gaslighting in the aftermath of the 2016 US presidential election

    November 19, 2016

    Sixty-six // Thirty-three

    December 22, 2018

    #2016BestNine: Last Minute Selfie Positivity

    December 30, 2016
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VESPER H.

YouTuber & Blogger

Queer As Cat is the blog and YouTube channel of Vesper, an American expat currently living in Japan.
reoccurring topics include: #asexuality, #nonbinary, #queerness #blackness & #mentalhealth

Recent Posts

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  • Ie Uru Onna Gyakushuu S2E3: “A home that is accepting of all [kinds of] love?!” January 24, 2019
  • the ‘Sin City’ asexual January 10, 2019
  • QAC 74 – 1 Year on HRT: Non-Binary Dysphoria | Euphoria | “Passing” || The T Files #010 January 3, 2019

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