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  • [Random] Thoughts,  Black[ness],  Gender[queer],  Queer[ness]

    “…what it means to become America’s boogieman”

    July 12, 2017 / 1 Comment

    [ … ] There isn’t any classroom, or pre-testosterone counseling session that prepared me for what it means to become America’s boogieman; a black man. What I was first acquainted with as a gender nonconforming dyke and what was further illuminated after engaging in hormone therapy and beginning to “pass” as a man of color, is that without organically derived psychological schemas, black masculinity is suspended in others’ projections, desires / fantasies, or agendas. [ … ] – Parker T Hurley (”Outside the XY: Queer, Black and Brown Masculinity”, a @bklynboihood​ anthology edited by Morgan Mann Willis) came across this gem (among others) in my reading today. the first highlighted / bolded part (emphasis mine) in particular touches upon something that i’ve been thinking about for years now, but haven’t gotten up the nerve to explicitly talk about for various reasons. the latter highlighted / bolded part is all too…

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    ….so i did a doodle.

    March 19, 2013

    allo by default: hypocrisy in “aspec” spaces

    February 25, 2017

    fuck your Oppression Olympics

    September 15, 2016
  • [A]sexuality,  [Random] Thoughts

    back from Tokyo

    July 11, 2017 / No Comments

    where i finally got to meet Japanese ace activist @harris-hijiri! actually, we both went to Tokyo to meet with Emie, an ace artist from Sweden who’s debuting her video art piece “Sexual Disorientation” (cw: genitals, masturbation) in Tokyo this Thursday. Emie is also working on an asexual documentary called “Aces of Baes”, for which both Harris-Hijiri and i were interviewed. how ironic is it that it took a globe-trotting Swed to finally bring the two of us together, even though we both live in the same country? lol anyway, it was a pleasure to meet them both. we should do it again sometime. 🙂

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    QAC 37 – Forced Out of the Closet: 1.5 Years Later (Non-Binary Asexual)

    June 16, 2015

    QAC 72 – Outted To Religious Mom: 4 Years Later | HRT | Non-Binary Relationship || #ItGetsBetter?

    September 18, 2018

    『[4コマ]☆AセクシュアルとAce(エース)☆』

    July 27, 2016
  • Mental [Un]health,  YouTube[r]

    QAC 57 – Depression and Anxiety, meet Antidepressants | Sertraline | Mental Health

    July 9, 2017 / 1 Comment

    for over 15 years i’ve struggled with Depression and Anxiety without therapy or medical intervention for numerous reasons, but having had Depression and Anxiety mop the floor with my ass for the past several months, i’ve finally bitten the bullet and sought out help in the form of antidepressants. in this video, i talk about my recent bout with depression and anxiety, my first psychiatric appointment and my first week on antidepressants. don’t want to watch the whole thing? don’t blame you, i’m longwinded as fuck. here are some jump points: ?00:31 – deteriorating mental health ?06:16 – first psychiatric appointment ?11:03 – antidepressants: the bad ?16:42 – antidepressants: the good …so this happened.

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    comments on my “QAC 36 – What Acephobia & Asexual Erasure Looks Like” video.

    November 26, 2015

    #SpiritDay 2016

    October 19, 2016

    QAC 34 – Distancing Yourself From Family

    February 16, 2015
  • [A]sexuality,  [Random] Thoughts,  Black[ness],  Queer[ness]

    Black Mirror: “San Junipero”

    July 6, 2017 / No Comments

    got home from work, made dinner and sat down to watch another episode of Black Mirror on Netflix before bed, as one does. was totally not prepared for what turned out not to be the queerbaiting i first assumed it to be, but to instead be a heart-wrenching queer romance between a bi / multiple gender attracted black woman and a gay woman exploring intimacy for the first time. not only was the story itself a tear-jerker, the characters themselves were well-developed and included quite possibly the most in-depth and positive representation that i’ve ever seen of a bi black woman character in particular in popular media. even consent– something that a lot of media doesn’t put enough thought into– was handled fairly well (imho) and the episode certainly explored things that other media tends to only dance around if touch upon at all, all crammed into a 60 minute…

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    Documentary Explores The Reality Of Being Black And Gay In The Church

    November 14, 2015

    パレードの皆さん、お疲れ

    April 26, 2015

    “the ace community goes overboard with words?” i.e. word vomitted “nah”

    April 5, 2018
  • YouTube Tokyo Pride Academy 2017
    YouTube Tokyo Pride Academy 2017
    Japan[ese],  Queer[ness],  YouTube[r]

    YouTube Pride Academy 2017

    July 1, 2017 / 1 Comment

    ever so aptly timed with YouTube’s second attempt at spotlighting LGBTQIA YouTube with the hashtag #ProudToBe, the first ever Pride Academy was held at YouTube Space Tokyo today. the name of the event itself being a play on one of YouTube’s programs for creators, Creator Academy. the event was aimed at encouraging and offering support to LGBTQIA people in Japan who might be interested in creating a channel on YouTube– regardless of the content that they chose to put on their channel. another aim of the event was to host a 交流会 (networking event) after the presentations in the hopes of fostering community among LGBTQIA youtubers in Japan by giving them a chance to meet each other. to that end, Google promoted the event at its booth during Tokyo Rainbow Pride this past May and i was pleasantly surprised to see the turn out, given the current state of LGBTQIA…

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    「私はゲイ」自分の言葉で、自分を語る / “I’m Gay” – Talking About Myself By Myself: Gay men talk about their own identity.

    May 6, 2016

    this quote though

    November 7, 2015

    …the things i do to not be a ひきこもり (その①)

    March 11, 2016
  • [A]sexuality,  [Random] Thoughts,  Queer[ness]

    commentary: “Where Is The Asexual Representation in LGBTQ Pride?”

    June 10, 2017 / No Comments

    …i mean, i know i’m particularly depressed and irritable right now, but is it really too much to ask for people to not throw others under the bus like this while trying to get theirs (or in this case, ace-friendly brownie points)? whether a particular post, article– whatever is written by an ace or not, i am just as tired of the asexual community’s uncritical consumption and promotion of writing and publications like this as i am of aces themselves being the ones writing it. sigh.

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    QAC 13 – Staying In The Closet

    August 11, 2013

    QAC 66 – Split Attraction Model: Opting Out Of Romantic Orientations || Grayromantic | Asexual

    March 12, 2018

    QAC 22 – LGBTQ J-Magazines: Garçon Girls + Novia Novia

    February 10, 2014
  • [A]sexuality,  [Random] Thoughts,  Queer[ness]

    bitter.

    June 2, 2017 / No Comments

    never not going to be bitter about having been essentially told to ‘shut up’ and ‘stay in my lane’ repeatedly by aro aces because i ‘already have enough [media] representation’, all based on them deciding for me that i’m an (allo)ro ace. let’s not forget the added irony that i am in fact not (allo)ro– the very premise of their claims which were subsequently used to fuel an inquisition against (allo)ro people in general, be they ace or not– but more importantly, i was being told this specifically over a show that is ripe with homophobic tropes, erases one of its lead characters’ bisexuality in addition to another lead character’s asexuality– all while simultaneously perpetrating biphobia; a show that also lacks a single non-binary character and in fact only has a couple of black characters because they were inserted into it as tokens. yeah, never going to not be bitter about that.

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    romantic orientation pride

    May 29, 2013

    …so this happened at TRP today.

    May 7, 2016

    humbled

    July 31, 2018
  • Mental [Un]health,  Uncategorized,  YouTube[r]

    …the state of this blog, basically.

    May 28, 2017 / 1 Comment

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    chronic long-term memory problems…

    July 4, 2018

    re: gaslighting in the aftermath of the 2016 US presidential election

    November 19, 2016

    pen. ink. paper: journaling as self-care

    January 27, 2019
  • [A]sexuality,  Black[ness],  Gender[queer],  Queer[ness],  YouTube[r]

    #DoTell Podcast: QueerAsCat (Interview)

    May 24, 2017 / No Comments

    nearly a year ago i sat down for an interview with the amazing Dandy of @dotellpodcast​, a podcast that was created to make a safe space for queer people of color to tell their stories. each week a new episode featuring someone’s intensely personal story is released and this week’s episode is mine. while i certainly wouldn’t hesitate to recommend any one of the other episodes of the #DoTell Podcast, especially to fellow QPOC looking to hear the stories of other QPOC, i can’t help but feel obligated to forewarn you that my episode is fifty-some-odd minutes of me quite literally spilling my guts to the world… and i absolutely will not be offended if you find my guts to be uninteresting and would prefer to tippy-toe through it. as such, here are few jump points? 00:00 ~ introduction 03:34 ~ how i ended up in Japan 05:01 ~ dysfunctional…

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    QAC 28 – On “Blackness”, Queer Identity & Intersectionality (a rant)

    July 14, 2014

    QAC 18 – Queer: More Than Sexuality & Gender Identity?

    October 12, 2013
    The Hypocrisy of YouTube: i.e. Why YouTube Is A Pink Capitalist Piece Of Shit

    #YouTubeIsOverParty: COPPA & The Hypocrisy of YouTube

    December 15, 2019
  • [A]sexuality,  Japan[ese],  Queer[ness]

    Japanese gender / queer theory, anyone?

    May 22, 2017 / No Comments

    …so i randomly went to Book Off (used bookstore) today after work and happened to find two used books on gender studies / gender theory that not only ① explicitly discuss binarism and how society ignores those who are neither of the binary genders (male / female) nor either of the binary sexualities (gay / straight)– there’s also ② explicit mention of asexuality and the alphabet soup where the acronym LGBTIAQ is used and I is defined as “Intersex”, A as “Asexual” and Q as “Queer”. notably, these books were published in ① 2013 & ② 2006 and are original works by Japanese authors rather than books imported into Japan and translated into Japanese. below are super rough (because i’m starving, exhausted and need to go to bed damnit) English translations for the above snippets.

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    more Sailor Moon Crystal fanpersoning #SCREAMING

    May 17, 2016

    …mmm, so.

    March 24, 2017

    Cosmopolitan: “Everything You Need To Know About Demisexuality”

    March 20, 2017
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VESPER H.

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Queer As Cat is the blog and YouTube channel of Vesper, an American expat currently living in Japan.
reoccurring topics include: #asexuality, #nonbinary, #queerness #blackness & #mentalhealth

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