so i got my hands on a couple of really interesting Japanese magazines and decided to make a video about them in the middle of a snowstorm when i was dead tired. what the hell was i thinking? sorry for the crappiness of this video! それともビデオが日本語じゃなくて英語で録画して、ごめんね！日本語が難しすぎからだ。(´Д｀)
i’ve never identified as a feminist and yet when it came to questioning my gender identity i somehow felt guilty for wanting to identify as anything other than my assigned gender, ie female. was i betraying myself? someone else? women everywhere?? i guess my relationship with feminism was and will always be more complicated than i’d thought. surely it’s not just me?
…it’s really depressing thinking about all the money i’m going to have to save up and then spend just to do away with something that i don’t need nor want. …and then it’s depressing thinking about all the people out there who’d love to have this thing that i don’t need/want. SIGH.
goodbye 2013 and good riddance! in this video i talk about my goals for 2014, including coping with depression/dysphoria through cycling, getting connected with Japan’s LGBTQIA community and saving money for a hysterectomy. i also talk about my (lack of) transitioning and my new name! a huge THANK YOU! to all of my followers and subscribers! there’s undoubtedly lots more videos to come in 2014. 🙂
while randomly watching videos on YouTube i came across the vlog of a Japanese FtX (their words, not mine) person. i was so happy that i immediately started typing a comment introducing myself, but when it came to saying that i’m neutrois i couldn’t figure out how to say it. see, Japanese kind of sucks…. there is no word to distinguish between SEX and GENDER– the both equate to 性 (sei). i dare say that the entire concept of gender vs sex is lacking in Japan, but that’s a topic for another time. i thought that maybe neutrois could be translated as 無性者 (museisha; literally translates to “person without sex/gender”) but apparently that’s used to mean asexual! wtffffff….. so then i thought that maybe i could say 中立性者 (chuuritsuseisha), which literally translates to “neutral person” but apparently 中立性 (chuuritsusei) is used in regards to having a neutral stance on any given thing and so wouldn’t really be used specifically for gender despite 性 (sei)…
sorry for being MIA for so long. in this video on blurb on and on about various random things that i have seen or experienced in Japan thus far. in short, work is going well and my piercings + attempts at gender neutral attire have all gone over fine thus far. more interesting videos to come in the future!
just a quick video before i go M.I.A. for a little while. thank you again for watching. 🙂
choosing a new name is really hard for anyone, but it seems especially hard choosing a gender neutral name. for one, is any name ever truly gender neutral…? there’s so much that goes into gendering a name that i think it’s impossible to really say. either way, because i’m so picky i find myself with very few options to choose from…
======= NAVIGATION BELOW ======= @00:00 – Disclaimer @01:09 – Is Asexuality part of the LGBTQ community? @01:57 – Arguments against inclusion of asexuality @03:58 – My opinion @05:07 – The Center, Vegas’ LGBTQ center @06:10 – Las Vegas PRIDE @06:53 – Asexual alienation in LGBTQ spaces @09:35 – The lack of B, T and other groups in LGBTQ spaces @11:59 – Asexual pride at PRIDE events…? @13:11 – “A” bashing in the film Gayby @14:01 – Does the rainbow flag really represent the entire LGBTQ? ================================ long video is LONG, i know. sorry! i have a lot to say on this subject. i understand that not everyone will agree with me on this topic; i certainly don’t expect eveyone to! i’m very interested in hearing others’ opinions on this, whether in regards to asexuality and the LGBTQ community or any other identity and the LGBTQ community. thanks for watching. 🙂
sorry for the long video and please do note that everything i said in the video is purely my opinion based on my experiences etc. i don’t claim to be an expert on anything…! and i totally forgot to mention how obviously i have to keep my gender under wraps during all of this being abroad business. i have to check “female” under “gender” on forms, if anyone asks i’m female, if anyone acts on the assumption that i’m female, i can’t disagree with them, etc etc. le sigh. sorry for being M.I.A. lately…! will try to do better. ;(
