QAC 75.5 – Life Update: Leaving Japan?! | Legal Name Change | Goodbye Locs
over 11 years after first leaving America for Japan, the time has come for me to finally try my hand at life back in the States…
QAC 72 – Outted To Religious Mom: 4 Years Later | HRT | Non-Binary Relationship || #ItGetsBetter?
in 2014, YouTube outted me to my mom and she’s struggled to understand, let alone accept my sexuality and gender ever since. four years later, things are still touch-and-go when mom finds out that i’m on testosterone and in what she perceives to be a “lesbian relationship”… does her head implode yet again? #ItGetsBetter, they said. well, at this point i have zero fucks to give either way, buuttt i made this #LifeUpdate / #StoryTime video for you anyway. consider this me being ‘officially’ back from being MIA / AFK, i suppose.
one step forward, zero steps back?
so, after going to an appointment with my psychiatrist and blabbering about how much being around my family fucks me up whenever i go “home” for the holidays, which i’d be doing in less than a month’s time, causing him to be like “but what if you relapse??? consider upping your meds before you go???” and me being like “at least i’m on meds at all this time around so lolololol nah”– i felt the need to just…. really DO something yesterday. so i did the something. and the something will happen 4realz for realz tomorrow. so yeah, Anxiety word vomit blogging at 9:35pm at Starbucks. over the past three weeks or so i’ve been emailing a clinic that had been recommended to me by a friend re: starting HRT. after three weeks of no response to said emails, i decided to sneak out of work yesterday (because the clinic is seemingly only…
Re: …i just did something bad.
( continued from this post ) went back to the petshop this morning after picking up a toy for the yet-to-be-named kitten because he didn’t have anything to play with in his cage and that’s just fucking depressing. also picked up some pet-friendly wet wipes to clean him up a bit. when i got there, i was able to take him out of his cage and noticed that they’d cleaned him up a bit since i was there yesterday. much appreciated. <3 stood there holding him for a good 5 minutes with him just chilling there in my arms, not trying to get away, crying out or anything. seriously the calmest 4mo kitten i’ve ever met. until i put him back in his cage with his new (catnip-filled) toy. even the staff stood there amazed at the instantaneous change in him. kittens will be be kittens, after all. just…
…i just did something bad.
….something very, very bad indeed. i totally jumped the gun and put down a deposit on this little guy when the plan had been to wait until January to get a cat. GAH. anyway, now to blabber on about how that even happened. for my own future reference. tl;dr: i’m ridiculous and he’s coming home September 25th. 🙂
…the state of this blog, basically.
re: fuck my life
18 days and two near anxiety attacks later, the ball is finally starting to roll again after having been stalled for weeks because of Japan’s love of Red Tape™. now that it’s finally rolling again, gravity has it rapidly gaining speed down a sharp incline of 15 days until i officially move out, with smaller finish lines in the form of various deadlines along the way. sigh!
…頑張るから。
as a follow up on this post about losing my job and a general life update, i guess: after a month of what felt like running a 40km marathon of creating multiple resumes, writing cover letter after cover letter, waking up at 4am to catch the 6:20am train to Tokyo and back for interviews and such all before going to work for 8 hours that same day– i’ve finally got a new job…! and not just any job, a job that’s better than my current job in every possible way minus paid vacation– ouch. the new job is going to be really challenging for me because while i have experience teaching high school students, i have never actually taught at a high school let alone an international one! as much as i could jump out of my own skin right now out of anxiety, among other things, i’m also excited…! except for the…
QAC 37.5 – Life Update: Therapy / Mom Drama 3.0 / LGBT Meetups in Japan
a long overdue and highly abbreviated update about what’s been going on in my life the past year. the highlights include turning 30 sucking, breaking off communication with my mom, trying out therapy, a self-care project, finishing my sleeve tattoo and trying to participate in local LGBTQIA events. ======== TIME POINTS ======== @00:00 – hello & thanks Kat Blaque. @00:44 – my laptop died. 🙁 @02:06 – turning 30 is depressing. @04:05 – no longer talking to my mom. @05:39 – therapy isn’t for me? @08:01 – talking about mental health stuff is hard. @08:35 – self-care: i made a thing. look at my thing. @10:17 – the body mod video is coming, i swear! @11:29 – going to LGBTQIA meetups in Japan. @13:08 – why i haven’t made videos about LGBT stuff in Japan. @14:22 – wow, you really watched all that? i love you. ==============================
QAC 24.5 Life Update: Tokyo / Asexual Pride + Outted Again + More
lots has happened since my last video, so it’s time for a life update. because i talk too damn much: @00:00 – sorry for the lack of vids! @01:19 – Yukihari, my new hedgehog @03:07 – Tokyo Rainbow Pride + asexual pride @05:55 – LGBTQ cafe: gossip @06:54 – Japanese FTM magazine: Laph (full video coming soon) @07:50 – the GENDER book (full video coming soon) @08:34 – my first binders (full video coming soon) @09:10 – (rant) being outted again & again @17:09 – thanks ——————- LINKS ——————- Queer As Cat @Tumblr: http://queerascat.tumblr.com/ Yukihari’s blog; http://yukiharihari.tumblr.com/ Tokyo Rainbow Pride 2014 photos: http://queerascat.tumblr.com/tagged/Tokyo-Rainbow-Pride LGBT cafe “gossip”: http://gossip-cafe.com/ Laph (ラフ) magazine: http://laph-ftm.com/ the GENDER book: http://www.thegenderbook.com/
