pen. ink. paper: journaling as self-care
occasionally i'll mention that i have a ridiculously poor memory. that i've pretty much always had memory problems and perhaps that's why even as a kid i took to writing in diaries...
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…so i took some photos while visiting Hitachi Seaside Park (Ibaraki, Japan) this past weekend and decided to plaster text all over them because i was feeling artsy fartsy and shit and if you reblog this post without this caption i will hunt you down and kancho you. 以上です。
Q&A not Q&A: “I hate discourse!”
anonymous said: I hate discourse! Honesty it makes me feel like crap whenever I see it. I want it to stop. I hate that asexuality/ aromanticim has become a punching bag for a portion of the tumblr community and acceptable to mock. *gah* *nods* ‘discourse’ really is frustrating, among a million other things. not gonna lie, i’ve very much enjoying my time offline with Cal or online with Netflix– anywhere that isn’t Tumblr tbh. i’m a huge advocate of dropping Tumblr like it’s a bad habit when it gets to be too much (or when life happenings just otherwise makes Tumblr “eh”)– or alternatively, blocking (temporarily or not) people who bring (inadvertently or not) posts from the ‘discourse’ side of Tumblr onto your dashboard. alternatively alternatively, use browser extensions to block keywords or tags to help keep yourself from seeing such posts without out completely blocking out a person or their blog entirely. there…
Q&A not Q&A: “i know you probably don’t care much abt the latest wave of “”discourse””…”
anonymous said: i know you probably don’t care much abt the latest wave of “”discourse,”” especially not something that was done to be deliberately petty/to get attention, but. just to catch you up while you’ve been busy, at one point, ppl who want to exclude us tried to redesign the ace and aro flags. shit’s gotten /that/ ridiculous. this ask is 2 months old and i have not been paying any attention to ‘discourse’, so who knows what’s happening now because i sure as hell don’t. i will say, though. that i’m not surprised to hear that at one point that happened. to me, shit’s always been /that/ ridiculous… to anyone being negatively affected by ‘discourse’ on this site: please be sure to take a break from Tumblr when you need to. please take care of yourself and don’t let this site’s negativity consume you. log out every once in a while–…
Q&A: “i found an old post about a poc ace and went on their blog and they know say they don’t identify as ace…”
anonymous said: (suicide ideation, death threat and conversion tw) i found an old post about a poc ace and went on their blog and they know say they don’t identify as ace because aces are bad, basically. and like, i’m literally crying. idk what to do, that just really struck me. someone who wrote about being queer, ace and a poc like me shitting on me and telling me my identity is inherently problematic when it’s the reason i can’t access mental health atm, which is something i need cause the ‘discourse’ & the violent abuse i faced on this website for, including death threats, caused me to fall back into suicidal ideation. and the only therapist available to me suggested conversion therapy (i live in a small central american country, there’s not much knowledge about these things- she thinks if i can be converted to straight, i will no…
BLAQUEER: a self-care attempt
January 1st, 2017: an attempt at being more “active” about my own well-being à la microblogging finally gets off the ground. i’ve been thinking about making something like this for myself for a while, but have always dragged my feet about it. BLAQUEER will be devoted to any and everything that i find helpful for myself personally re: navigating queerness, mental health and self-care as a black person. at the moment, i envision that as including, but not being limited to: photos, artwork, etc of queer black people existing: because goddamnit, be it on Tumblr or out in the world at large, i never see that without actively search for it. i want a place where i can see people like me existing without having to hunt for it each time. i also want to curate what i see because i’m tired of wading through hypersexualization / hypermasculinzation when i do hunt…
Q&A: “I really need some advice, i have social anxiety & I recently went out with a friend…”
anonymous said: I really need some advice, i have social anxiety & I recently went out with a friend, she said their would only be a few other people there I didn’t know but when we went out there was a lot of people there I didn’t know on top of my friend ignoring me most of the time, I felt alone & anxious . Afterwards she bugged me until I told her what was wrong & now she’s made at me. I feel like I’m crazy I’ve been having panic attacks ever since. I feel like a horrible person & I don’t know what to do you’re most certainly not a horrible person, anon. you’ve done absolutely nothing wrong and how you feel / felt (both now and at the time) is understandable and no fault of your own. as far as i’m concerned, your friend has no reason…
September 22, 2016 @ 23:47
being kicked out of Starbucks. proof that i have no life zzz….
“”summer vacation””
[ video: a soundless and unfiltered 1 minute compilation from tonight’s 1 hour firework show shot from my apartment window! ] tomorrow marks the end of my one week “summer vacation” and i’m ridiculously bummed about it, but at least it’s ending with a bang. D; tomorrow’s agenda: go see the Ghostbusters movie since it’s finally come out in Japan. or maybe X-Men: Apocalypse? or maybe both. the real agenda is to just not care about the world for a day. wish me luck.
Q&A: “Do you have any tips for dealing with an unsupportive family?”
anonymous said: Do you have any tips for dealing with an unsupportive family? See, I came out as nb/pan awhile ago and while they weren’t happy they weren’t bad about it. However, me and my father got into a massive fight in which he yelled at me that he’ll never see me as anything other than my agab, and a whole litany of other homophobic and transphobic comments. I haven’t been talking to him because it’s far too painful to do so, but now my mother says I’ve rejected him and am causing too much tension and that I’m tearing the family apart, and that I need to get over it because I’m being selfish. How do I smooth things over with my family, because I don’t want to tear my family apart, and look after myself at the same time? This situation is causing a lot of mental strain.…
