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  • [Random] Thoughts,  Gender[queer],  Japan[ese],  Mental [Un]health,  Queer[ness]

    QAC 55.5 – Life Update: Post-Election Mental Health | Staying In Japan | Outted To Dad

    November 23, 2016 / No Comments

    two weeks ago any vague plans that i’d had for my immediate future were abruptly shattered when America elected Trump as the next president of the United States. two weeks later, i’m still struggling to cope with the news and the resulting blow to my already poor mental health. in this video, i give voice to my thoughts on being forced to navigate HRT in Japan and forgo (for the time being) other gender-related medical things that i’d hoped to pursue in America. i also talk about possibly moving to Tokyo in a year’s time, having been outted to my dad via Twitter and a new book by Ashley Mardell that i highly recommend. longass video is long, so here are some jump points for those of you only interested in specific things. @00:00 – post-election mental health @03:50 – shattered future; staying in Japan @08:55 – name change, HRT…

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    December 14, 2016

    QAC 10 – Gender Dysphoria & Body Mods

    July 6, 2013

    …mmm, decided there hasn’t been enough Calcifer on this blog, so here you go.

    November 20, 2017
  • [Random] Thoughts,  Art[sy Fartsy],  Queer[ness]

    September 22, 2016 @ 23:47

    September 22, 2016 / No Comments

    being kicked out of Starbucks. proof that i have no life zzz….

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    January 2, 2017

    #2016BestNine: Last Minute Selfie Positivity

    December 30, 2016

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    April 21, 2016
  • [A]sexuality,  Black[ness],  Gender[queer],  Mental [Un]health,  Queer[ness],  YouTube[r]

    Re: QAC 51 – #ProudToBe Black Non-Binary Bi Pan AND Asexual

    June 23, 2016 / 1 Comment

    ah, i had the most amusing day today, getting notifications on my phone for the comments left on this video. i’m not even pissed off anymore, it’s now become hilarious. people are saying that 4chan is behind the spam / hate attack on the #ProudToBe spotlight / hashtag and somehow that just makes it even more hilarious to me. i’m so amused that i felt like screencapping some of the 66 comments i’ve gotten on the video so far. trigger warning for pretty much any and everything. please respect your triggers. don’t read any further if you aren’t in a place where you can laugh at all this hate with me. me: *every time i got a notification on my phone today* this is when my apathy-fortified wall of No Fucks Given seems like a really awesome coping mechanism because it allows me to brush off / laugh off otherwise…

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    photos from Tokyo Rainbow Pride 2014 (04/27/2014)

    May 7, 2014

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    May 22, 2017

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    December 26, 2018
  • Feedback,  Mental [Un]health,  Q&A

    Q&A not Q&A: “you’re personality REALLY reminds me of me. I’m also what you call “apathetic as hell.””

    June 19, 2016 /

    anonymous said: you’re personality REALLY reminds me of me. I’m also what you call “apathetic as hell.” I just think you can catch more flies with honey. People shut down if you automatically start tearing them down. You don’t build yourself (& others) up by tearing someone (& others) down. PLUS you’ll NEVER get them to understand what you’re talking about if you attack them back because they’ll be in their defensive mindset. It’s effective in helping people evolve. It’s also important to pick your fights. If you’re constantly fighting not only are you going to drain yourself but people will start to take your fighting level as a basic level of how you react to things and they’ll take you less seriously. Also some people do screw up and don’t realize it; informing them on the issue and helping them improve themselves is better than just throwing them under…

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    Feedback: “I just wanted to thank you for your post on the alterous vs platonic thing…”

    February 23, 2016
  • [Random] Thoughts,  Gender[queer],  Japan[ese],  Queer[ness]

    …the things i do to not be a ひきこもり (その①)

    March 11, 2016 / 1 Comment

    ahhh, okay so i just need to vent. feel free to ignore this. someone in an Xジェンダー (Japanese non-binary) group that i’m in posted a link to a party being held in Tokyo on the 26th. there’s often some kinda of gay (literally always with fine print saying ‘men only’) or lesbian (literally always with fine print saying ‘women only’) event going on in Tokyo. more recently there are events aimed at trans men– but anyway, the point is i’m none of those things. and i haven’t really cared that much because i’m the definition of introversion. i have zero interest in night life and all of these events always happen at night. why is it that LGBTQ events more often than not involve late nights, loud music and copious amounts of alcohol??? moving on.

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    QAC 31 – Relationships… Meh.

    November 17, 2014

    “i am bisexual”

    February 2, 2013

    『[4コマ]☆Xジェンダー☆』

    July 31, 2016
  • [Random] Thoughts,  Gender[queer],  Queer[ness],  YouTube[r]

    QAC 47 –  Re: “Transitioning” in Japan / Body Mods & Dysphoria || Tea & Word Vomit

    February 28, 2016 / No Comments

    Queer As Cat (the channel) is about to turn 3 years old and (miraculously) reached 4k subscribers last week…! and for some reason i feel like taking this channel back to old times where i casually vomit words at you in a single, raw take. to make this word vomit a bit more digestible, here’s the gist of what i talk about with time points. 00:00 – tea tea tea 00:33 – 4k subscribers omg 02:05 – financial stress: why i’ve made some changes to the channel 05:30 – rethinking “transitioning” in Japan 10:51 – body mods & dysphoria: how the two are linked for me 15:35 – tea or coffee: which do you prefer? as always, thank you for watching. 🙂

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    QAC 37.5 – Life Update: Therapy / Mom Drama 3.0 / LGBT Meetups in Japan

    August 11, 2015

    “i am asexual”

    February 12, 2013

    QAC 04 – Why I Identify as Panromantic & Biromantic

    May 24, 2013
  • Mental [Un]health,  YouTube[r]

    QAC 43 – Coming to Terms w/ Depression & Anxiety | Mental Health

    December 7, 2015 / 1 Comment

    my journey to self-awareness and self-acceptance regarding the state of my own mental health has been a long one. 15-some-odd years i’ve been struggling with persistent depression and social anxiety and my journey is far from over. in this video i talk about how i went for over a decade without even knowing what “mental health” even was and how i’ve struggled going from that to where i am today, having finally accepted my mental health for what it is. i also briefly mention how the intersectionality of race, sexuality and gender factored into my struggle with mental wellbeing. for those who’d prefer to read most of what was said here, check out this Tumblr post: http://tmblr.co/Z04EMt1y9JmEq the video ended up being fairly long, but oh well. i’m glad i wrote most of it out and posted it to Tumblr first then sat on it for weeks. made talking about…

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    QAC 57 – Depression and Anxiety, meet Antidepressants | Sertraline | Mental Health

    July 9, 2017

    pen. ink. paper: journaling as self-care

    January 27, 2019

    re: ….so. selfies.

    February 15, 2015
  • Mental [Un]health

    Persistent Depression & Anxiety: My Personal Journey

    November 15, 2015 / 1 Comment

    this post corresponds to a vlog that i will be posting have posted on my channel soon, but i figured i’d write out my feelings now and test the waters on Tumblr first. warning: talk of death and self-harm, along with lots of negativity in general. also, this post is extremely long. 15-some-odd years. that’s how long i guesstimate that i’ve been suffering from depression and anxiety. and yet i’ve only become aware of this over the course of the past 3~ years and have only come to accept it within the last year. like my sexuality and gender, mental health is something i’ve had to learn about and navigate entirely on my own. the journey has been rough

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    QAC 59 – Antidepressants 3 Months Later | BetterHelp: Online Therapy| World Mental Health Day

    October 10, 2017

    QAC 29 – (Not) Coping + 3 More Years in Japan

    August 24, 2014

    …so. selfies.

    February 15, 2015
  • [A]sexuality,  Art[sy Fartsy],  Gender[queer],  Mental [Un]health,  Queer[ness]

    one day

    October 29, 2015 / No Comments

    doodled a thing about wanting to be (more) active in the LGBTQIA community, but depression getting in the way zzz…

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    QAC 35 – Body Image: An Intersection of Black, Non-binary & Asexual Identity

    March 16, 2015

    🎬 QAC 79 – The Neverending Queer-y: My Queer Ace Journey || LGBT YouTube & COPPA

    January 4, 2020

    QAC 11 – Growing Up Ace (Asexual)

    July 21, 2013
  • [Random] Thoughts,  Japan[ese],  Queer[ness],  YouTube[r]

    QAC 37.5 – Life Update: Therapy / Mom Drama 3.0 / LGBT Meetups in Japan

    August 11, 2015 / No Comments

    a long overdue and highly abbreviated update about what’s been going on in my life the past year. the highlights include turning 30 sucking, breaking off communication with my mom, trying out therapy, a self-care project, finishing my sleeve tattoo and trying to participate in local LGBTQIA events. ======== TIME POINTS ======== @00:00 – hello & thanks Kat Blaque. @00:44 – my laptop died. 🙁 @02:06 – turning 30 is depressing. @04:05 – no longer talking to my mom. @05:39 – therapy isn’t for me? @08:01 – talking about mental health stuff is hard. @08:35 – self-care: i made a thing. look at my thing. @10:17 – the body mod video is coming, i swear! @11:29 – going to LGBTQIA meetups in Japan. @13:08 – why i haven’t made videos about LGBT stuff in Japan. @14:22 – wow, you really watched all that? i love you. ==============================

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    August 20, 2016
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VESPER H.

YouTuber & Blogger

Queer As Cat is the blog and YouTube channel of Vesper, an American expat currently living in Japan.
reoccurring topics include: #asexuality, #nonbinary, #queerness #blackness & #mentalhealth

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