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“too butch.”

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April 29, 2019

QAC 66 – Split Attraction Model: Opting Out Of Romantic Orientations || Grayromantic | Asexual

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March 12, 2018

? queer is

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October 17, 2017

h/History.

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February 11, 2019

“the ace community goes overboard with words?” i.e. word vomitted “nah”

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April 5, 2018
  • [Random] Thoughts,  Mental [Un]health,  Queer[ness]

    Shit-I-Think-Is-Happening-#BecauseTestosterone Log

    February 10, 2018 / No Comments

    blaqueer: blaqueer: blaqueer: blaqueer: content warning: TMI regarding bodily functions & genitals week 1 (62.5mg  /2 weeks, injection) exacerbated drowsiness like what oncoming-cold-like throat shenanigans voice in my head sounding like it does when i first wake up, except all day long random, awkward voice cracking when trying to talk over obnoxious teenagers random, inexplicable genital feels random, pre-menstruation-like feels from that arrogant thing called a uterus stairs suddenly became a little less formidable after the injection, but not for all that long. my bladder suddenly isn’t what it used to be– why??? week 2 bladder weirdness is still a thing throat shenanigans are no longer a thing voice cracking still is a thing marginally lower-than-normal speaking voice more easily maintainable; however, without conscious effort, speaking voice remains unchanged downstairs growth hardly noticeable but there began wondering early on into week 2 if all of the T had already been…

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    pen. ink. paper: journaling as self-care

    January 27, 2019

    missiles and tweets.

    August 28, 2017

    QAC 44 – Dear White People: About “People of Color” (POC) | A Rant

    December 20, 2015
  • [Random] Thoughts,  Mental [Un]health

    anxiety: haha– fuck you.

    February 8, 2018 / No Comments

    me: could you maybe NOT make me think about that thing anymore maybe MAYBE? anxiety: did you know that that thing that you THINK you don’t want to think about but are thinking about anyway is a legit thing that you OUGHT to be thinking about– because WHAT IF?? i mean, just think about it! that thing? IT’S A THING. THAT YOU ARE STILL THINKING ABOUT. that thing. fuck.

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    June 3, 2014

    QAC 07 – Transmasculine & Transfeminine (my opinion)

    June 4, 2013

    fuck your Oppression Olympics

    September 15, 2016
  • [Random] Thoughts,  Mental [Un]health

    just the one.

    February 3, 2018 / No Comments

    as someone who can count on one hand the number of people they’ve ever had intense feelings for over the course of 32 years of this thing called “Life” and still have fingers to spare, can i just say that this whole intense feelings thing is an adjustment? with a learning curve, apparently, because what little past experience i have feels like nothing in comparison, and yet has still managed to do nothing but hinder me in the present. might as well only count the one finger. yes. that finger. because fuck you, ghosts of relationships past that still haunt me to this day.

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    QAC 10 – Gender Dysphoria & Body Mods

    July 6, 2013

    Re: “”Visibility””

    September 18, 2017

    random is random

    August 9, 2015
  • Black[ness],  Japan[ese]

    Tumblr trolls…. ugh.

    January 30, 2018 / No Comments

    blaqueer: so, you know that saying “laughter heals the soul”…? well, i certainly wouldn’t go that far, but it did make for a good, even if “childish”, way to pass the time on Snapchat at work today. at the very least, it’s better than getting annoyed or frustrated, as per usual. see: original post bitmoji and Snapchat make for Tumblr-worthy reactionary screenshots, apparently.

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    "Building" by LEANDRO ERLICH (2017) taken at Mori Art Museum 2018

    h/History.

    February 11, 2019

    gender feels; racial trauma.

    December 6, 2017

    it began with locs…

    February 25, 2018
  • [A]sexuality,  [Random] Thoughts,  Queer[ness]

    that feel when no words

    January 22, 2018 / No Comments

    that feel when you finally have a use for relationship terminology, but none of it makes sense to you because all of it is predicated on the assumption that you subscribe to the dichotomy of “romantic” vs “[queer]platonic”– not to even mention the equally taxing concept that is “alterous”.

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    Tokyo Rainbow Pride 2016 (5/8/2016)

    May 14, 2016

    QAC 50 – Biphobia x Non-Binary Erasure x Binarism || Bi Non-Binary People Exist

    June 12, 2016

    Re: QAC 51 – #ProudToBe Black Non-Binary Bi Pan AND Asexual

    June 23, 2016
  • [Random] Thoughts,  Mental [Un]health,  YouTube[r]

    impostor.

    January 20, 2018 / No Comments

    …it’s always disconcerting to be reminded of how people seem to have an impression of me as a person / my personality that doesn’t at all reflect who i am in reality.

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    July 27, 2016

    Documentary Explores The Reality Of Being Black And Gay In The Church

    November 14, 2015

    “the faces of Vesper”

    June 8, 2014
  • Gender[queer],  YouTube[r]

    QAC 64 – 48 Hours On T || Starting HRT In Japan || Non-Binary || The T Files #004

    January 15, 2018 / No Comments

    it’s only been 48 hours, but i’m finally on T! 62.5 mg/ml of Enarmon Depot (エナルモンデポー) every two weeks, to be specific. The T Files is a series of videos documenting my journey to get testosterone in Japan and wherever i may end up with it from there. while this series may be helpful for those who are interested in the process of getting HRT (more specifically, testosterone) in Japan, it’s also just my personal playlist of [shit]videos about my adventures with T for my own future reference. watch at your own digression. :p more like 72+ hours on T now, but who’s counting. only YouTube, who immediately flagged this video as inappropriate for some advertisers, presumably just because it had “testosterone” and “HRT” in it. sigh.

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    Re: QAC 51 – #ProudToBe Black Non-Binary Bi Pan AND Asexual

    June 23, 2016

    QAC 26 – Gender Dysphoria: It’s Complicated. (a rant)

    June 30, 2014

    them gay enbian feels

    October 16, 2016
  • [Random] Thoughts,  Gender[queer],  Japan[ese],  Queer[ness]

    01.12.2018: T Day à la Snapchat.

    January 12, 2018 / No Comments

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    October 19, 2016

    custom t-shirt wooo

    March 31, 2015

    spotted: LGBT 101 on Japanese TV

    February 21, 2015
  • Black[ness],  Japan[ese]

    Calpis / Antiblackness / Japan

    January 8, 2018 / No Comments

    queernigga: since conversation about blackface in japan is springing up again and summa y’all want to act brand new as if this is isolated and never happens let’s talk about the original mascot of Calpis, used from the 1920s until the fucking 1980s. Lemme also link one of my old videos about an experience with blackface drag in 新宿二丁目。 literally walked past a vintage ad for Calpis with this character on it yesterday at an antiques store in Kamakura; that was my first encounter with Calpis’ history with this character. can’t say i was surprised, but definitely disappointed. to this day, not only blackface but also redface and yellowface (re: depictions of people of other asian ethnic groups) is still very much alive and well in Japan– especially in the 芸能界 / entertainment industry. and without fail, every time something like this happens– if it even makes it into the…

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    “too butch.”

    April 29, 2019

    sigh.

    July 23, 2017

    gender feels; racial trauma.

    December 6, 2017
  • [A]sexuality,  [Random] Thoughts,  Black[ness],  Japan[ese],  Queer[ness]

    Antiblackness and Binarism: Grindr in Japan

    January 6, 2018 / No Comments

    posted with the permission of a friend, the above gem is but one of many examples of antiblack racism, transphobia and binarism that my friend is subjected to regularly on Grindr in Osaka and Tokyo. sharing it here as i often hear of this kind of thing happening on Grindr in English speaking countries, but see little about it beyond that. antiblackness is not unique to America or other English speaking countries, it is universal. and least there be any false assumptions made based on the above example being in English, my friend receives similar messages from non-English speakers in Japanese and has also received such messages during their time living in South Korea. this is Old News that is apparently Breaking News to some, but rest assured it most certainly is not Fake News.

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    February 25, 2017

    custom shirt

    October 13, 2013

    Tokyo Rainbow Pride 2015 (4/26/15)

    May 10, 2015
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VESPER H.

YouTuber & Blogger

Queer As Cat is the blog and YouTube channel of Vesper, an American expat currently living in Japan.
reoccurring topics include: #asexuality, #nonbinary, #queerness #blackness & #mentalhealth

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