ANNOYING.

…that feel when some random guy chats you up while you’re sitting around in some government building for hours (ie. a DMV) so you have literally no means of escape and eventually he manages to get contact info out of you because you’re too nice and then he starts messaging you and flirting and you just want him to stop and go away because it’s annoyinnnnng.

I DON’T AND WILL NEVER LIKE YOU LIKE THAT AND YOU’RE JUST ANNOYING ME, PLEASE STOP– BUT GOD I FEEL SO MEAN BECAUSE THIS CRAP IS SUPPOSED TO BE “NORMAL” AND MAYBE YOU’RE NOT EVEN ACTUALLY TRYING TO FLIRT BECAUSE I HAVE NO RADAR FOR THIS KIND OF THING, I JUST KNOW YOU’RE ANNOYING ME AND UGH.

sometimes i can’t tell if i’m just socially inept, if i just hate traditional “courting” (*barfs* @the word) gestures, if i simply have some bizarre knee-jerk aversion to certain social (romantic?) norms or what.

and sometimes, not just at times like these, i off-handedly wonder if i’m something else on top of being panromantic because of how strong my knee-jerk reaction is to certain things, but i’m too lazy to work that out right now because it’s complicated zzz….

edit: ….and there comes a time when it becomes painfully obvious that someone is flirting with you and it would just be better to block them then and there because you don’t have the guts to be direct and you feel like you may be inadvertently leading them on otherwise. >_>; sigh.

edit2: except that he already has my actual phone number outside of this messaging program. gah! gotta be direct after all… i suck at this.