• Gender[queer],  YouTube[r]

    QAC 65.5 – Understanding T Injection Dosages || HRT | Non-Binary | Trans

    for those not familiar with reading syringes or dosages in general, figuring out how to read or calculate dosages of testosterone injections can be confusing. while i’m certainly no expert at it myself (and as such, please do correct me if i’ve gotten something wrong), i have yet to see any other video specific to this topic in regards to testosterone for non-binary, trans and gender non-conforming people, so i figured i’d try my hand at it. the usual “I AM NOT A DOCTOR” disclaimer applies. …iono, maybe someone out there will find this video helpful. meanwhile, i’m tired of flooding my own channel with nothing but HRT-related videos. time to talk about other things. soonish. zzz…

  • Gender[queer],  YouTube[r]

    QAC 65 – 1 Month on Low Dose HRT | Non-Binary | Mental Health || The T Files #005

    voice cracking? increased stamina? mood swings?? it’s been one month since i started a relatively low dosage of testosterone and even though in actuality not much has happened yet, i’m still surprised by what has. it’s been an interesting month, but as it turns out starting low-dose T isn’t as simple as simply choosing a random low dosage and going with the recommended injection frequency. or at least, not when you’re trying to manage depression and anxiety on top of it all and you’re not sure  fluctuating hormone levels are a risk that you want to take. one month later, while still happy with my decision to start T, it’s time to take a moment to pause. recap. and reevaluate. …my video descriptions sound like the back of a poorly written novel abandoned on the shelf with the tabloids in the checkout aisle because someone decided last minute that it…

  • [Random] Thoughts,  Mental [Un]health,  Queer[ness]

    Shit-I-Think-Is-Happening-#BecauseTestosterone Log

    blaqueer: blaqueer: blaqueer: blaqueer: content warning: TMI regarding bodily functions & genitals week 1 (62.5mg  /2 weeks, injection) exacerbated drowsiness like what oncoming-cold-like throat shenanigans voice in my head sounding like it does when i first wake up, except all day long random, awkward voice cracking when trying to talk over obnoxious teenagers random, inexplicable genital feels random, pre-menstruation-like feels from that arrogant thing called a uterus stairs suddenly became a little less formidable after the injection, but not for all that long. my bladder suddenly isn’t what it used to be– why??? week 2 bladder weirdness is still a thing throat shenanigans are no longer a thing voice cracking still is a thing marginally lower-than-normal speaking voice more easily maintainable; however, without conscious effort, speaking voice remains unchanged downstairs growth hardly noticeable but there began wondering early on into week 2 if all of the T had already been…