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  • Gender[queer],  Japan[ese],  Queer[ness],  YouTube[r]

    ? QAC 78 – 1yr+ on T: Japan vs America | Planned Parenthood | Intermusc vs SubQ Injections || The T Files #011

    September 8, 2019 / No Comments

    as an AFAB non-binary person with zero interest in "passing" as male, i never thought that i'd still be on HRT nearly 2 years after having started… and yet here we are.

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    Vesper H.

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    gender feels; racial trauma.

    December 6, 2017

    …annnd that’s a wrap!

    May 7, 2017

    Tokyo Rainbow Pride 2016 (5/8/2016)

    May 14, 2016
  • Gender[queer],  Japan[ese],  Queer[ness],  YouTube[r]

    QAC 74 – 1 Year on HRT: Non-Binary Dysphoria | Euphoria | “Passing” || The T Files #010

    January 3, 2019 / No Comments

    happy new year…! speaking of new years, i seem to have inadvertently ended up still being on T (nearly) 1 year after having started, despite having never intended to continue HRT for so long…

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    Vesper H.

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    …the things i do to not be a ひきこもり (その①)

    March 11, 2016

    QAC 05 – Gender Blurb: Neutrois?

    May 29, 2013

    QAC 70 – 5 Months On T: Stopping HRT? | Voice Change | Non-Binary || The T Files #008

    June 26, 2018
  • Gender[queer],  Queer[ness],  YouTube[r]

    QAC 70 – 5 Months On T: Stopping HRT? | Voice Change | Non-Binary || The T Files #008

    June 26, 2018 / No Comments

    from YouTube: (more than) two months has passed since my last T update and a lot has happened…? increased acne, continued voice dropping; increasing body hair, fat redistribution; adjusting to having a libido, enjoying no longer being anemic; a failed health check, stopping T– wait, what?

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    Vesper H.

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    gender feels; racial trauma.

    December 6, 2017

    this quote though

    November 7, 2015

    QAC 48 – Non-Binary Gender Norms & (A)sexuality: Yeah, No.

    March 27, 2016
  • Gender[queer],  YouTube[r]

    QAC 64 – 48 Hours On T || Starting HRT In Japan || Non-Binary || The T Files #004

    January 15, 2018 / No Comments

    it’s only been 48 hours, but i’m finally on T! 62.5 mg/ml of Enarmon Depot (エナルモンデポー) every two weeks, to be specific. The T Files is a series of videos documenting my journey to get testosterone in Japan and wherever i may end up with it from there. while this series may be helpful for those who are interested in the process of getting HRT (more specifically, testosterone) in Japan, it’s also just my personal playlist of [shit]videos about my adventures with T for my own future reference. watch at your own digression. :p more like 72+ hours on T now, but who’s counting. only YouTube, who immediately flagged this video as inappropriate for some advertisers, presumably just because it had “testosterone” and “HRT” in it. sigh.

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    Vesper H.

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    QAC 28 – On “Blackness”, Queer Identity & Intersectionality (a rant)

    July 14, 2014

    sigh.

    July 23, 2017

    the ‘Sin City’ asexual

    January 10, 2019
  • [Random] Thoughts,  Gender[queer],  Japan[ese],  Queer[ness]

    01.12.2018: T Day à la Snapchat.

    January 12, 2018 / No Comments

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    Vesper H.

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    re: ….so. selfies.

    February 15, 2015
    photo: a green house outside of which is a sign which reads "WEED 21+"

    legalized weed in America: one of many chips on my Black shoulder

    March 7, 2020

    a 1.5 hour conversation with a random Nigirian

    October 12, 2017
  • [A]sexuality,  [Random] Thoughts,  Black[ness],  Japan[ese],  Queer[ness]

    Antiblackness and Binarism: Grindr in Japan

    January 6, 2018 / No Comments

    posted with the permission of a friend, the above gem is but one of many examples of antiblack racism, transphobia and binarism that my friend is subjected to regularly on Grindr in Osaka and Tokyo. sharing it here as i often hear of this kind of thing happening on Grindr in English speaking countries, but see little about it beyond that. antiblackness is not unique to America or other English speaking countries, it is universal. and least there be any false assumptions made based on the above example being in English, my friend receives similar messages from non-English speakers in Japanese and has also received such messages during their time living in South Korea. this is Old News that is apparently Breaking News to some, but rest assured it most certainly is not Fake News.

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    Tokyo Rainbow Pride 2017: ACES & ENBIES

    May 15, 2017

    Re: Tokyo Ace Meetup

    April 5, 2015

    QAC 71 – Testosterone, Libido & Asexuality: Has HRT Changed My Sexuality? || The T Files #009

    July 9, 2018
  • Gender[queer],  Queer[ness],  YouTube[r]

    QAC 62 – The Road To HRT: Fears, Goals & Compromise || Non-Binary || The T Files #002

    December 11, 2017 / No Comments

    when i first started this channel not long after having just began to explore and embrace my gender, i didn’t consider HRT / testosterone to even be a card on the table for me to play. HRT was something that others did and that i was judged for not wanting to do; it was for people who experienced “real”, bodily dysphoria, not people like me whose dysphoria was largely derivative of society and whose complicated relationship with the very idea of medically “transitioning” was used as a means of invalidation by others. i can’t help but imagine 2013 Vesper looking at 2017 Vesper with silent, candid irony as they brush aside the years of others’ bullshit to finally confront their own.

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    Vesper H.

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    …annnd that’s a wrap!

    May 7, 2017

    QAC 33 – (Not) “Transitioning” As Non-Binary in Japan

    December 30, 2014

    one of many reasons why “QUEER” means so much to me.

    September 23, 2016
  • Gender[queer],  Japan[ese],  Queer[ness],  YouTube[r]

    QAC 61 – Non-Binary Gender Identity Disorder (GID) & HRT in Japan | The T Files #001

    December 4, 2017 / No Comments

    after years of whining and moaning about it, i’m finally doing it; i’ll be starting HRT soon– and in Japan, no less. 2014 Vesper, who made an entire video about NOT “transitioning” in Japan, is eating their words. what’s made me change my mind now? how does one start HRT in Japan? as a non-binary person?? Gender Identity Disorder??? in this video, i talk about all the above, as well as recap the “highlights” of my recent appointment with a psychologist to get diagnosed with GID; a necessary first step to [legally] starting HRT from scratch in Japan. [ cw: vague sex mention @ 11:27 ~ 11:55; reproductive body stuff ] …took me long enough to get this video up, geez.

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    Vesper H.

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    QAC 30 – Gender Expression / Presentation Blurb

    October 28, 2014

    National Geographic: “Gender Revolution” (Japanese Edition)

    January 11, 2017

    QAC 01 – Introduction

    May 11, 2013
  • Gender[queer],  Japan[ese],  Queer[ness]

    re: one step forward, zero steps back?

    November 27, 2017 / No Comments

    queerascat: so, after going to an appointment with my psychiatrist and blabbering about how much being around my family fucks me up whenever i go “home” for the holidays, which i’d be doing in less than a month’s time, causing him to be like “but what if you relapse??? consider upping your meds before you go???” and me being like “at least i’m on meds at all this time around so lolololol nah”– i felt the need to just…. really DO something yesterday. so i did the something. and the something will happen 4realz for realz tomorrow. so yeah, Anxiety word vomit blogging at 9:35pm at Starbucks. over the past three weeks or so i’ve been emailing a clinic that had been recommended to me by a friend re: starting HRT. after three weeks of no response to said emails, i decided to sneak out of work yesterday (because the clinic is seemingly…

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    whiteness as default

    December 10, 2017

    gender feels; racial trauma.

    December 6, 2017

    本の紹介:「Xジェンダーって何?」

    October 4, 2016
  • Gender[queer],  Japan[ese],  Mental [Un]health,  Queer[ness]

    one step forward, zero steps back?

    November 26, 2017 / No Comments

    so, after going to an appointment with my psychiatrist and blabbering about how much being around my family fucks me up whenever i go “home” for the holidays, which i’d be doing in less than a month’s time, causing him to be like “but what if you relapse??? consider upping your meds before you go???” and me being like “at least i’m on meds at all this time around so lolololol nah”– i felt the need to just…. really DO something yesterday. so i did the something. and the something will happen 4realz for realz tomorrow. so yeah, Anxiety word vomit blogging at 9:35pm at Starbucks. over the past three weeks or so i’ve been emailing a clinic that had been recommended to me by a friend re: starting HRT. after three weeks of no response to said emails, i decided to sneak out of work yesterday (because the clinic is seemingly only…

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    Vesper H.

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    QAC 10 – Gender Dysphoria & Body Mods

    July 6, 2013

    GENDER.

    February 16, 2014

    QAC 33 – (Not) “Transitioning” As Non-Binary in Japan

    December 30, 2014
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VESPER H.

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Queer As Cat is the blog and YouTube channel of Vesper, an American expat currently living in Japan.
reoccurring topics include: #asexuality, #nonbinary, #queerness #blackness & #mentalhealth

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